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........--|||~It's Always About the Music~|||--........
.......................|||And It's Impact|||..........................

Disturbed, Papa Roach, Breaking Benjamin, Seether, Three Days Grace, Slipknot, Sevendust, Chevelle, The Birthday Massacre, Doomsday Refreshment Committee, Mudvayne, KoRn, Metallica, Godsmack, Hatebreed, Bon Jovi, Linkin Park, Evanescence, Nightwish, Trivium, Aerosmith, 30 Seconds To Mars, Stone Sour, Drowning Pool, Bullet For My Valentine, 3 Doors Down, Hinder, Pantera, Rise Against, Pink, Eminem, Theory Of A Deadman, Within Temptation, Avenged Sevenfold, MSI, The Offspring.

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........--|||~Babble Time~|||--........

Figured it was about time for an update from Christmas. o_O

Still busy with things. Though quite honestly I'm finding it very difficult to remember what I do through out the day. So when someone asks me "What's been keeping you so busy?" I don't know what to say.

I've got a lot on my mind right now. So many decisions that have to be made. One of which is going to change everything.. and either way will end in a heart break of someone else, as well as my own. So how exactly do you choose which person you let down? Do I stay, do I go.
If I stay, things could lead into something I'll never be free of. Destruction. If I go, I stand a chance at something truly amazing. A fresh start. But what will my absence do to the one that gets left behind? And what if...
What if.
I guess it comes down to.. how long do I breath in this poison before I start to search for the fresh clean air?

Then there is other things that are completely unavoidable. Things that have me in a panic.
Though I'm going to suppress these thoughts as much as possible. As they say, worrying only brings the problem into reality.
However, that strength is bound to faulter. As everyone knows. =/
I guess we'll see.

I also hate to say that memories have been rather vivid lately. Quite painful. Every stone can chip and crumble at anytime. So it was only a matter of time I suppose.

Onto a better note though.
I have had someone offering me help through all this. Which has caused some sleep deprivation for the both of us on the nights that I've fallen apart. And the other way around.
My gratitude for him and the honor he deserves.. and so much more.
I can't believe you. <3 Thank you, Peter.
You're right. This is all going to change. For both of us.
Soon.

A few other's I want to thank for helping me too, perhaps without even knowing it.

Justin-
I can't thank you enough for the games. I really can't. You make me laugh so damn hard I can't stand it sometimes. XD
Your constant sarcastic/cheerfulness on everything can brighten anyones day. I'll always consider you my brother. And Yoshi.
...Also I can't help but snicker when something with a Pixie Stick pops up.

Mike-
You know. I rarely talk to you about my problems.. but I know you're still there for me. And I enjoy being there for you when you need me. Also hearing about your progress with different games.
Honestly I feel like an idiot sometimes when I'm talking to you. XD You have quite the knowledge of things. But it's all okay. <3
Thank you for always being there, hun. I do know I can count on you for a lot.

Michelle-
For how often I get to talk to you.. the fact of how much we think a like, it's just.. wow. XD You're an awesome girl. Though I've had other female friends, I really can't say I've been able to carry a conversation with them like I have you. Besides my sister.
I'm really glad to have gotten to know you so much better. ^_^

Stephen-
You boy. Surprise me.. a lot. XD And yet at the same time, not so much. You're such a frickin' nut. And even though our conversations are quite short lately, you help distract me. Always my partner in crime. <3
And.. you'd still make an awesome sister. Or brother.

Jeremy-
Jer-Bear. I love you to pieces. You always give me such a warm welcome when you see me. Glad I can brighten your day so much. n_n Miss ya though, and hope all is well.

Manni-
I bearly know you. And you'll never see this. But you're damn hilarious. Thanks. XD


I just felt the need to say all that. Just 'cause you're not on the list doesn't mean you havn't made an impact on me. Just that these people do it quite often.

Anyways, I think that's enough for now. I can't stand to sit at this computer as long as I used to. And I've killed quite a bit of time writing this up..
Though distractions don't help either with that.

I hope everyone is doing well.
Truly, I am not unhappy. I'm very grateful for a lot right now. Just there is a lot going on.

Oh and a final note. I'm Justin's art slave right now. So if there is going to be anything else posted, expect it to be for him for a while.. XD Or whoever he requests it for/of.

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........--|||~The Motivation~|||--........

"A painter paints pictures on canvas. But musicians paint their pictures on silence."

"If I were to begin life again, I would devote it to music. It is the only cheap and unpunished rapture upon earth."

"The golden moments in the stream of life rush past us and we see nothing but sand; the angels come to visit us, and we only know them when they are gone."

"And now here is my secret, a very simple secret; it is only with the heart that one can see rightly, what is essential is invisible to the eye."